However did you come to be here?

Friday, August 31, 2012

Sorry!

Well, things progressed very fast at home when I came to renovations.. I am currently staying at Jay's mom's house. It's very hard to stick to the Poon lifestyle here! Breakfast and Lunch are easy enough.. Dinner is the hard one! She cooks dinner.. So she has been really really trying to keep things "safe" for me, but I know it's not really.. I don't want to be mean and tell her otherwise. I just put the meat she makes on a giant pile of lettuce or spinach. I'm having a very hard time resisting snacks, though.. Yesterday I had some popcorn.. The other night I had nachos (I went to the movies for the first time in three years..) ... I have not had anything bad today!! I am just screwing myself.

Cheating implies I am getting away with it, I am most certainly not! Even if no one else knows, it's only hurting me!!!

Staying here is soo stressful. I must keep busy and stop eating badly.

Today's breakfast was an egg and spinach with hotsauce. Lunch was three lettuce wraps with mustard, hotsauce, left over roast beef, green onion, green pepper, and radish. Dinner is steak and salad.

I'm currently being cried at by a 13 month old.. Save me..
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Monday, August 27, 2012

My first real "bad" day.

Well, last night I was up 'til about 4:30am, completed my kitchen and bathroom demo.. It was hard work!
I stayed on plan all day yesterday, too.

After my whopping 4 hours of sleep, I got up to the contractor knocking at my door. My kids weren't even up yet!! So, we had to get up, booooo!! Jay (my DP) went and bought some coffees for us, and muffins for everyone (except me, obviously).

I packed up my things from the kitchen the night before, so it's not like I could make anything for myself for breakfast. I wasn't too upset, truthfully. The plan was for me to Jay's mom's house while they finish the work there, so I packed up a weeks worth of clothes, diapers, and what I had left of meat and veggies.. Anyways, I got out the door FINALLY by 12:30pm or so. As I got on to the highway my lips started tingling and began to go numb. I also started feeling panicky (I suffer anxiety attacks), I figure my blood sugar was low.. I had nothing I could eat except some muffins! So I had some muffin, and ate a granola bar when I got to MIL's house.

Then I cooked a proper lunch (egg white, pork loin, green onion, and spinach with a tiny shake of parmesean, and some hot sauce)..

So I am feeling super guilty, and am mad at myself.. Which is making me want to eat more crappy food! Ugh!! I've drank a litre of water since then.. Going to start on another 500mls soon.


I've also had a headache since before I started eating Dr. Poon's way..
I'm laying on MIL's couch watching The Wiggles with my girls, and listening to the rain.

Gotta stop feeling sorry for myself. Just a bump in the road, I will keep going!!


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