Okay, after an embarrassing GAIN... I'm back. I am bipolar, and was in a downward spiral.
My home scale is broken, and I swear 'cause I couldn't see what I was doing to myself it wasn't important. I got a stern talking to from Dr. Crystal, and it was definitely needed. I am feeling better about everything, I am glad that it wasn't as big as a gain as I was expecting, and it wasn't worth it. Eating didn't make me feel better, it didn't get me through the rough spots.
I injured my knee (I fell in a hole in my backyard-- thanks to the wonderful car dealership that ripped one of my trees out-- but that's a whole other can of worms) and could barely walk for a few days. I picked up a cheap tensor brace, and have stopped running for now. I tried to run through the pain- and that only (obviously) made it worse. I dreamt about running last night. Ugh, I am feeling okay today without the brace on, but am definitely taking one more day of rest before I try anything.
I am sad that I feel like I have to mistreat myself to deal with my depression. I have a history of self harm, and it's almost like I get the same satisfaction from EATING CRAP now! Now THAT is ridiculous. Who knew. Anyways, I'm happy to be back.
Today's plan is:
Breakfast- Protein shake, and half of a 2 cream coffee from Timmies.
Lunch- One egg, one egg white (scrambled), with spinach and green onion.
Dinner- Lemon grilled chicken, grilled broccoli (marinated in italian dressing) and a Caesar salad (1/2tbsp Renee's, on a mix of romaine and iceberg lettuce).
I doubt I will have any snacks, but if I do they will be of the salad variety. I don't get to run today, so I am gonna try to find a low impact work out I can do until my knee feels better!