Weigh in..

Well, I should have known. That -11lbs I lost last weight in was too much for me to replicate. With all the hardships I went through, I'm happy to report that I did not gain, but only lost .5 lbs.. So, a half a pound. I am sad to say, but .. A loss is a loss, and is better than a gain. Everyone has a hard time once in a while. I ate pizza in depression, but now am back on track. I have decided I won't be buying much"processed" foods anymore, I eat too many of the sugar free chocolates, I know they are not "free" and I think it's just better if I don't buy them anymore. As much as I love them, they also make me extremely sick.. But that's thanks to the effects of malitol.

Anyways, I have been down in the dumps, and very weak. I have been keeping a food journal, and I swear it's just making me worse. I don't know. I hope my next weigh in is better! I will enjoy my hard candies though, I don't want to binge on those, and they satisfy my sweet tooth. It's all about finding balance, I suppose. I am trying to figure this out, but I know this will always be a life long struggle. I am glad I haven't felt like I can't do this, times get tough, and everyone messes up. Get back up, and keep going at it.

Cheating implies that you get away with it. I don't get away when I eat bad food, I just cheat myself out of success! I can do this.. I will. I will be happy, and I will be healthy... For my kids, and for myself.